What I like and don't like about myself

A very important part of starting the "healing" process is knowing yourself better. Maybe you think you do, maybe you never thought about it. In order to identify where it all comes from, you should definitely have an introspection. Well, my "homework" for today was to write what I like and don't like about myself.

I had a strange reaction to "homework" and writing about me. It's strange to not know things about yourself, but hey, we're all in the process of "becoming". So that's a good thing. So I'm pouring my honest self here, with the good and the bad. that I know of)

Ahm..what I like about me? I like that deep down inside I AM an optimist. Even through some "first-world" problems, like developing the right career, being stuck and pressured into life changing decisions, having some bad insomnia episodes and days of blur and unhappiness, worries that "what if these feelings are here to stay" forever, I never lost hope. Never.
I just know that I need to keep going and it will all get better. Never ever loose hope.
I like that I am ambitious. I have this strenght to go ahead and do it, whatever it is that I decide to do. I am not always successful, but I do try my best. I like that I have this witty personality. And intelligence. Definitely that. Intelligence. That's important, and I like it.
I like that I am sociable and open to people,  I am-probably- a good communicator. I should note here that I don't encounter social anxiety in my life. I don't have an issue with that. I have other issues.
I have a strong desire to become better, to be a better person, to learn more, to see more, to live more.
I think I'm a strong person, but very emotional and generous in my sentimental life.

I don't like:

the fear, obviously, the effing fear. That's the point where I realize that the fear IS JUST A FEELING, not a characteristic of my beautiful personality.
What I don't like is that I can be an egoistic person, sometimes I'm dishonest and passive-aggressive. I hold things in. I definitely don't like that I get over stressed and worried. I worry. 
A lot. About lots of things. I hate that. I worry about things that I can not control. Now, isn't that just silly?
I hate that I have to wonder if I will be ok..and the constant wondering if I am just a normal person(?) - well then that' s where I see a greater purpose for this blog- It's VERY important to know that there are SO many other people going through this. Yes, normal people. The world wide web is full of our stories, of our struggle and success. 
I don't like that I envy people (what's up with that? Bleah! )
I don't like that I'm a bit indecisive about some things in my life (it sorta depends on the context).
I don't like that I am the kind of persons that looks back with regrets...and I don't like that the list for "I don't like"s is getting longer than the likes one, so I'm stopping here.
I'm joking, I'm actually done for the moment. 
So..do it for yourselves. Do a bit of introspection. Do it alone, find a therapist, talk to someone about your anxiety. Don't let yourself go mad, just be open about it.